Hello Droogz and Diamonds,
Welcome back to my blog! How are you?
Now in today’s post it’s going to be short but personal. There’s a lot of things that people don’t know about me and I will get into that all within my timing.
I want to make a disclaimer on this post and it will be written in bold just in case people wanna play games
THIS IS MY THOUGHTS, MY EXPRESSION. NOT TO BASH ANYONE. I DID NOT INCLUDE RECEIPTS (PROOF) I AM KEEPING EVERYONE’S CONFIDENTIALITY AND PRIVACY BY NOT INCLUDING NAMES, TIME AND LOCATIONS. IT’S JUST ME EXPRESSING MYSELF OF THE RECENT EVENTS IN MY LIFE.
First thing I want to address that I can’t even believe I’m addressing this. My grandfather raised me. He is technically my dad. Yes, there have been a lot of health issues with him as of late but with prayer, he’s getting better. Just because he’s my grandfather doesnt mean that people have to disrespect it. There is a certain someone who had made comments because he’s my grandfather the pain isn’t the same as if it was a parent. It’s absolutely disrespectful to me. Especially if you haven’t been around my family and know the history then no one not even the father of my kids, not even Jesus Christ himself makes a comment.
Another thing I want to get into. I never ever portray myself as one who plays innocent. I am human I do fucked up things but I live and learn. However, there are a people in this world who continue to bash me on the same issue. Who lie on my name saying I was that same person at my dark times and uses it against me and then makes excuses for how they treat me. Not am I extremely hurt by this, I’m also disgusted. Bringing me down, calling me names like Bitch (to which I will get into that in a later blog post) It’s abusive but right away instead of apologizing this person continues. I have asked for my closure genuinely many times and many times it has been swept under the rug. Also, as I mentioned before I am not perfect I have done things that I would have never done unless provoked. I want to make this clear because accusations are against me. I know what I have done and everything will come into the light. I leave it in god’s hands. I will not let that tear me down.
My whole life I have been in the same predicament when it comes to family, friendship and men. Recently I have walked away from a relationship that was toxic since the very beginning. He was a cheater and I use to drink lots of beer. He always cheated on me. I cried every night. I looked so pathetic and desperate but there was a reason for me doing this. The relationship just wasn’t good and recently I had to walk away because no mater how good you are to people, they will still make you look like the bad guy. People like my past relationship and the family will do anything to throw you under the bus. This was something i dealt with and I’m not dealing with it anymore. Mental Abuse is real. It’s not a joke. I never thought it could happen to me but it did. However, I have to move on and do better for myself!
In speaking better for myself. I am proud to announce( I have not finished, its still on going, still on the first draft ) my novel the epidemic.
If you wanna read what’s out there just click the link below. I’m so proud of myself and how I’m not letting this pain affect me negatively like how I did in the past.
I just want to say Thank you! For all of the support on this blog whether I talked about movies, Wrestling, books for myself it’s just a beautiful feeling people do support.
Be Kind, Stay Pretty
If you want to read the few chapters that are up on Wattpad click in the link below